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This isn't what I thought it would be.
I figured we'd always be happy.
Be happy together,
I now see that's only a wish.
Not a demand, nor a dream
Just a wish, nothing but a wish.
You've always been like this,
I should've seen this coming
You always strive for attention.
The feelings you have always
Go back to the same damn thing
You always think you're better
Than everyone.
You think your pain is the worst in the world,
As if!
You say your heart won't
Beat if you leave me.
Listen to me!
If you love me so much,
Where are you?
Why did you leave?
I'm here alone,
Deep, deep in the dark hole.
My dark hole with my warm gutter.
Deep in this hole lies my gutter.
I could be drenched in sewage,
Thrown to bits and pieces by storms,
And be shoved back down into
My little hole with my gutter.
And no matter what I do,
I still find myself looking into the stars,
Thinking about you.
I can't help it.
I love you,
You won't come back, but I await the day.
I find you in the stars...
I hope they continue to tell me
Where you are.
When the stars don't shine,
My gutter becomes Hell.
Come back,
Come back so I can
Stop relying.
Stop relying on the stars to find you...
There's no place like home.
And home is far away.